oh look, im back here already

i think i could make use of this. for saying things out in a place definitely no one will see.

so, im just going to say this:
im getting paranoid at you again. i said to myself i would stop being like this. but every once in a while, something always puts me in a parnoid mode. paranoid that you have someone again and that i aint important or even special to you anymore. but the real thing in paranoid about is that you would be taken again and i would be in that horrible state like last time. three weeks of that was hell and i dont ever want to have to experience that again.

/sigh i just had to let that out somewhere i know you wont see...