12 March 2010

wishing you were here yet again..

“Wishing you were here” it’s like one of those postcards isn’t it? The ones with the picture of people somewhere else and those four words... well, I wish you were here. Because there’s so much going on over ‘here’ where you were just a year ago. The changes here that you don’t get to see. The changes here that you don’t get to be a part of...

It doesn’t get easier, does it? But i wish it was easier; wish it wasn’t this hard...

I was hoping by now he would be just another memory. But no, I’m still wishing he was around every day and I’m sick of it. When I’m alone, all I do is think of you and the times we had. All those good good memories...

Time and time again I ask, why ______? Why can’t I forget you??

Seven weeks have gone by already. I still miss him. I still replay all those good memories. I still wish he was back. I’m still hanging on to the past.

The past has gone and now it’s the present. I can’t go back in time yet I wish I could. Then I could reverse what my friend calls the ‘domino effect’. But it’s not really the domino effect, is it? I just wanna change how it was then. Just wanna go back to then and do everything I wanted to do with him around so then I wouldn’t regret anything....

______, you’re like the wind, aren’t you? Winds that never come back to the original place....or are you the star that I can only see from afar?

Whatever you are, come back into my life yea? Come back and be that older brother you were to me...

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